You may have heard the saying mind over matter, it basically means if you are determined and dig deep enough you can access your willpower to get the job done, whatever that is. There is definite merit in knowing you can push through hard times. It’s empowering and can even be an adrenaline rush to power through and overcome challenges. For many of you, it is a skill that helped you survive hardships and possibly abuse.
However, there can be a downside to this philosphy. For example, when you experience rumination and/or anxiety, depression and cannot will your way out of it, you may be very hard on yourself and conclude that you must be faulty in some way, or weak. You may think self compassion is a kin to pity, or that you are not worthy of compassion as you need to be held accountable for your shortcomings.
This self deprecation has a tendancy to deepen your struggle with mental health. Adding fuel to this mindset is society, telling you if you are not pushing yourself to the limit, you are not doing enough,and ultimately, you are not enough. I want you to know that is a lie. You are enough, you always have been enough and you always will be enough.
What may be happening is there is a disconnection between the mind and the body. You’ve been living out of your head, thinking and willing your way through all of it, and it worked for a long time. There comes a point where, after pushing aside rest and not giving yourself the love you deserve, your body speaks or even screams to you through such things as illness, chronic pain, anxiety, panic attacks, depression, dissociation, depersonalization, mood swings, procrastination, anger, irritation, being easily overwhelmed, fatigued, and/or going hard for a while then crashing. You may experience tight muscles, shallow breathing, holding your breath, nausea, blurry vision, tunnel vision, bracing, headaches, inability to concentrate, etc.
In short, there comes a time when being chronically over capacity through constant busyness and pushing yourself to exhaustion just doesn’t work anymore, and your body demands your attention. If slowing down causes distress, there are most likely deep roots connecting a sense of safety and self-worth to being busy and being productive. It is a difficult position to be in, exhausted from overwork yet terrified to rest.
The remedy is to work with a therapist trained in working with what shows up in the body as well as the mind. There are ways to change our trauma responses and build our capacity. (Yes, what I have been talking about are typically responses to times we experienced something overwhelming and were not supported through it.) If you could change your response to challenges from overwhelm and pushing yourself to the limit to being able to say no when your gut tells you to and not feeling guilty, or to letting go of the idea you have to be perfect, not worrying about being judged, wouldn’t you?
Our bodies and our minds are amazing, and when they work together, amazing things happen. Remember you are enough, you always were enough and you always will be enough. Visit my website, link below for more information.
Deb Mooney RSW, SEP